i was struggling what to blog today.. i was choosing between comparison, or the Old Testament. obviously i chose comparison, and the reason i did is because its something present in my life. i feel like being open and real is important.. and im sitting here writing about something that i am currently learning. so, we’re learning this together. i hate to be looked at like im perfect, like i dont make mistakes, like i dont have bad days, or that i dont sin. because let me tell ya.. this girl is a sinner and is broken.. which is why she needs her Jesus.
lets be real, you’ve done it. your ex’s new girl (guilty), the beautiful girl at school (guilty), the christian blogger (guilty), the girl in the magazines body (guilty). comparing yourself with others literally makes you feel like you are worth nothing. because you see how they look, how they live, how their life is, and you no longer feel blessed with yours. which is sad, because we are all oh so blessed. we are all made in His image, for His purpose, and in His timing.
in Genesis, when God created the heavens and the earth, He also created us. but when He did, read Genesis 1:27. “So God created human beings in HIS OWN IMAGE. IN THE IMAGE OF GOD, He created them; male and female He created them”. In that 23 word verse, “HE CREATED” was written three times. Obviously God is trying to tell us something. He didn’t just poof out humans. God thought about it. It took him 5 days to make us, because it took time and thoughts. He didn’t want to create some random people. He created us in HIS image. Not anyone elses. Not according to someone else’s opinion. But simply, His image… and for His purpose.
The absolute biggest thing i struggle with is comparing myself to other girls. oh boy does this EAT ME ALIVE. especially when i know them, or they are with my ex, or if i went to highschool with them, or if they are my best friend. whatever the case is, i totally decrease my self esteem, and increase my insecurities. i am going to tell you an honest story, that happened three nights ago. in my instagram search bar, i had a girls selfie pulled up. on my profile, i had a selfie of me pulled up. i went back and forth from my search bar to my profile, i would stare at her, stare at me, point out my flaws.. i did this for about 5 minutes. i kid you not, i literally heard this voice, “brayclyn, what are you doing”. YEAH BRAYCLYN, WHAT ARE YOU DOING. this was not from God. jealously, comparison, and insecurities are not from our God. I was totally doubting Gods creation and goodness when i was doubting myself and who i am. because i am made in His image and i wasnt loving it. which makes me disobedient to the Lord because i am not being obedient to His word. so long story short — i quickly got out of that girls selfie.
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.” Psalm 139:14
Jeremiah 29:11 is a cliche verse, but a verse that has life in it. “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans to give you hope and future“. Each one of us has our own purpose here on earth. According to His Will, though, not ours (which is for another blog post). The next time you see someone succeeding, making more money than you, have a career you want, or comparing your relationship with someone elses, remind yourself.. That is their life. God has His own plan for you.. Plans to give you joy, hope, future, happiness, glorify Him, prosper, succeed, but according to His plan. God is writing your own story. Chapter after chapter, let the Lord write it for you. And trust it. Trust what His plans are even when you can’t see them. Even when there are questions and doubts, trust Him.
this was long, im sorry. but between all the social media that is out there, i know comparison is out there. we compare our lives to the amount of likes pictures get, or how many retweets a tweet can get. it all comes back to competition and comparison. something that we, as disciples for Jesus, shouldnt be involving ourselves in. of course, we are human. its a natural thing to compare. but when you know and meditate and learn Gods Word, we start to love ourselves more because we love our God. We love everything that comes from Him, and we come from Him; so love yourself. Look forward to what the Lord has in store for you. I dont know what you are going through right now, but i want to encourage you and let you know that this isn’t the end. sometimes it has to rain, to create a beautiful SUNFLOWER! dont lose hope, the Lord is near, the Lord is preparing you, and He is growing you. I promise, if you stay in His Word and in prayer, His Will for your life will be done. Dont doubt Him..
again, i am learning this with you guys. i am trying this. i challenge you all, along with myself, to love yourself and trust the plan our Lord has in store for you. i love yall and so does Jesus.
It is never about Jesus if it’s always about us.
I pray that The Lord may speak to you through me, I can only hope I can help you in your relationship with Christ.