I’m sitting in bed and decided i wanted to write. so here i am, writing. long time no talk — it’s been since September since i blogged. I’ve missed it. let me just catch you up real quick: i started a YouTube channel, i take online classes for Liberty University, i now have a nephew, and i am in the midst of growing pains.
Ah, the fun. growing pains. It’s not a fun feeling but yet in the long run, i will be so thankful for the hurt. so as I’m going through a season of growing pains, i want to share with you what i have learned.
you are human and you have feelings. don’t get caught up in the lies that you have to feel perfect all of the time. that you don’t ever feel sad, mad, depressed, confused, or just not yourself. whatever this life throws at you, it IS okay to NOT be okay. now don’t get this confused. it’s not okay to stay there, but it is okay to feel not okay. did that confuse you? in another words, being okay is normal, but it’s not normal to stay there. don’t lie, don’t try and hide your feelings. talk about them, feel them, and overcome them. it’s normal to have feelings. it’s normal to feel broken. it’s normal to sit in your bed one night and just cry. but it’s not normal to stay there.
Jesus was one of those awesome people who, ya know, feels and understands ya (1 Peter 3:18). He has felt what you feel, and He has probably faced more than you have. i mean, He got hung on a cross for gracious sakes. but because He relates, we are welcomed in His arms widely. He knows the feelings of rejection, the feelings of hatred, the feelings of loneliness, and the feelings of just plain old life. Psalm 34:18 states, “The Lord is CLOSE to the broken-hearted and SAVES those who are crushed in spirit.” yep. you heard it right. 🙂
this is the reality: God is attracted to weakness. He can’t resist those who are humbly coming to Him hurt. He is in awe when we come to Him, in need of Him. so don’t feel like you’re bothering God or that He can’t handle it. there is nothing you’re dealing with too small or too big for God to take it, teach you, grow you, and overcome it.
growing pains HURT. like when you are stretching your leg and the biggest charlie horse comes upon you and you can’t move. that’s me right now. that might be how you’re feeling. but when i feel stuck and i am hurting, God is close to me. He is attracted to my honest brokenness. and the most beautiful part of it all, He still loves me with that unfailing, everlasting, and gracious LOVE, no matter what I am facing and no matter what I’m feeling. whatever your growing pains are right now, eventually that charlie horse goes away and you feel SOOOOO much better. am i right? God has a plan for you and has a reason for it all (Proverbs 3:5-6). even if you don’t understand, God does and that’s all that matters. put your trust in Him and allow Him to make something SO beautiful out of you after these growing pains.
it’s okay to not be okay. it’s okay to not hide your feelings. it’s okay to be honest with yourself and others. it’s okay to fall on your knees to Jesus. it’s okay to feel broken. it’s okay to feel lonely. it’s okay to not feel yourself. and it’s okay to feel that charlie horse.
It is never about Jesus if it’s always about us.
I pray that The Lord may speak to you through me, I can only hope I can help you in your relationship with Christ.